Layin' in the sun,
Talkin' 'bout the things
They woulda coulda shoulda done...
But those Woulda-Coulda-Shouldas
All ran away and hid
From one little Did
Time to start DOING things. I haven't been pursuing God. At all. I think I have some entitlement issues to work out, as well as the more obvious trust/faith issues. Faith and trust create problems for me in other parts of my life too. For instance my acting classes. I second guess myself so much because I'm so afraid of putting my true, raw self out there. I don't trust myself or the people around me and it's frustrating to be feeling like I'm going nowhere. Same with God. He doesn't get the REAL me, because I'm too afraid to show him everything, no, too afraid to give him everything. I know he already sees everything. And what I still don't get, is that he wants me. ME. Even with all of my "Shoulding" all over myself. I need to find value in that and learn to trust it. To trust the great people I surround myself with. To trust my family, who loves me, to trust a God who wants me, and to trust and value myself enough to DO something about it.
